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Mand9584
11-10-2015, 09:42 PM
Hey all,

So I was editing photographs I shot recently and was sorting through prints and came across images my ex-fiancÚ. All these thoughts of the past began to drive into my frontal loab causing my emotions to throw curve balls and focus on my work I was doing. I began to think about if I had made the right decision again about not marrying her. We used to be in love, I've dated her when I was 21 until I was 26 and then proposed. After that we moved in and things went into a downward spiral. I don't need to go into full detail about this but I think I had one of those "you don't know what you have until it's gone." moments. While realizing all the good and bad, I think I'm also feeling this way because I've been single for a year and a half now. My sister told me last year that my ex-FiancÚ got engaged to a man she was dating for a short time it seems. While I'm happy for her It burns inside to think about how I could have been her prince charming. I believe I was jumping over hurdles and just stopped running. I fell out of love with her. I couldn't pretend to love her and marry her. It would have been wrong. What I did was call off our wedding plans, and broke up with her. It was a very rough breakup but I had to do it.

Looking back I can say I am content where I am in my life. I appreciate all the time spent with her and the other relationships I've had with women. I've learned from everyone of them. I can honestly say that the next women who wants to be the first lady has to be a strong individual to be with me and my creative pursuits. I will be able to love that lady unconditionally and give he my heart because I've learned to love who I am after being on my own for almost two years, traveling solo, and meeting amazing individuals along the way. We're all on the path to mastery and deal with inhibitions on a daily basis. Persistence and believing is everything to me. It's what keeps me going. I think life is based on relationships and no one is meant to be along. One day I will meet my significant other, we may at the time be living in parallel universes, that at some point will converge. To life, because life makes life good for life - Cheers D