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  1. #31
    Join Date
    May 2017

    Day 15-16

    Two amazing days. Two powerful days of working on ourselves, our inner dialogues, and bonding with each other listening to these brothers. There’s just something so special about this program when it’s bringing together such diverse people, with the sole goal to become the best men we can possibly be. In the process, I am being continually humbled as I listen and relate to all the stories and experiences, pains and ordeals of each man here. I’ve seen grown men break down, and come out the other side stronger than ever and solid as a rock. And they’re doing it with some of the closest friends they have and will ever have. I’m nervous as fuck for my turn to dive deep into my thoughts, and feel like a fraud in the face of all of these other inspiring people, but I’m ready.

    The nights out were crazy. The first we had a table right on the dance floor for Tiesto, literally the best table in the entire club. As soon as we walked in as easily the best dress group, all eyes were on us. Standing up around the table/platform around the dance floor made us even more visible. Just as the instructors said, when we set the nights up like this there’s a natural slant in the energy in our favour. The night was great, met a gorgeous, firey tattooed mixed ethnicity woman. The kind of girl that, two weeks ago, I would have viewed as someone who would eat men alive and someone who I would never be able to keep around for more than 5 minutes. I ended up spending most of the night with her, completely due to my rapidly developing masculine presence and energy. At one point, I was walking with her around the club together looking for the right girl for a threesome, when we noticed literally every head was snapping in our direction, guys were looking at me, and women had this girlish look of awe. It was that moment I realised how much power we have inside just waiting to be let out amongst all the shit we’ve learned in our lives. The next night was very similar, except I didn’t spend the whole night with one girl, but was giving out lots of fun and good vibes to a lot of people, in a very masculine way. I was present, out of my head, and there was this intensity and energy that I’ve seen crack through occasionally but has been so elusive for more than a few minutes. Women I was with on the second night would tell me they’ve never met a guys like me, and they don’t meet guys like me. A bunch of crazy shit happened too, so much that I wouldn’t believe 2 weeks ago. It was awesome to go into party mode a bit too with the guys, and just have a great night. The bottle girl was pretty amazed that she’d never served so many bottled waters (since no ones drinking). Kind of hilarious to look around and see us having the most fun in the whole club, and literally not a single drink had by the guys. By the end of Tiesto, and certainly when he finished, people weren’t even watching the DJ anymore, they were watching our table.

    Reflecting on how far I’ve come, I realised even more how much this whole program has been about me working on me. We literally haven’t been given a single line, yet everyone’s progressing so quickly with their relationships with themselves, each other, people around them, and women. I’m so grateful and proud to be here.

  2. Journal 4

    Tuesday August, 8 2017ó Day off.

    I went pretty hard the last couple nights knowing that there was a day off coming up, and I planned to take full advantage of it.

    This afternoon the instructors came over to the mansion and we all told stories and did a debrief from the night before which was very valuable. Itís always so eye opening and necessary to get someoneís objective opinion on how youíre interacting with women and this is where a lot of personal growth happens.

    Before debrief, we had an open discussion about group sex. An instructor asked us who was uncomfortable with the idea. I put up my hand.

    I thought I was pretty open sexually, but while being on the program Iíve learned what is really possible sexually and that group sex is a very normal and exciting experience for everyone involved. But because Iíve never partaken I still feel nervous/trepidation around the idea of it because itís brand new to me, and to be honest something I didnít really think existed outside of movies. But talking about it helps.

    The instructors left around dinnertime, and I think I went to bed at 11 PM, which is the equivalent of like 5/6 PM in my normal life.

    Wednesday August 9, 2017ó Surrender.

    I was looking forward to going back to Surrender considering the fun I had there the previous week. But something was off, it just didnít have the same vibe.

    I hung out with a few different girls over the course of the night, the two more memorable interactions that I had were from Canada. I started talking with one early in the night, but it was literally the first girl I talked to so I wanted to keep going and see what else was out there in the club, so I left her after about and hour or so.

    I ran into another Canadian later and spent a long time with her dancing and making out a bit. She had a friend with her but no Rockstar wanted to talk to her in ANY capacity, which made it really hard to convince them to come to the mansion.

    It was almost four AM and after 6 days of serious inner game reflection I was still pretty mentally exhausted despite a solid sleep the night before.

    I left her and had to run to the parking garage to catch a ride with one of the boys. And as I did a different Rockstar honked and yelled at me to get in.

    There was one girl in the front seat, and the girl I left early in the night was in the back seat by her self.

    ďWe meet again,Ē

    We drove to the mansion and got in the pool, we started making out. But she told me she was on her period, and that she had a ďmom bodyĒ after giving birth 4 months ago. Not the quickest way to get into my pants. We both just crashed around 6 am.

    More inner game tomorrow..

  3. Journal # 5

    Weíve still been hitting the inner game pretty hard, and to be honest itís fucking amazing but it's exhausting. Especially since we all gave up caffiene despite staying up until 3,4,5, or sometimes 6 in the morning.

    The fact that this is a 64 day program and we're spending 10 days of that focused on inner game shows how important it is. Time is of the essence, everthing we do is planned down to the smallest detail shows how important it is.

    On top of all the inner game stuff going on, one of the guest instructors gave us homework to do something BOLD at the club.

    The great thing about this program is that just when you think you've done everything you can, there's another aspect added and we find out we can push each other that much further.

    So with the inner game breakthroughs still fresh in our minds, and a new homework challenge weíre all set for back to back Hakkasaan nights.

    Night 1 - Thursday August 10th, 2017.

    I won't lie I was pretty fucking stiff inside the night club when we first got there.

    Itís loud, itís crowded, itís high energy. Not to say that the other bars we went to werenít, this is just a different beast. But we also had a new weapon in our arsenal.

    A fucking SICK table behind the dance floor, stage left.

    The night started ok, a little bit more tense than usual but me and a rockstar were talking to two HOT blondes from Arizona and one of the instructors came up behind me and started mouthing the words ďtable. Table. TABLE.Ē

    I literally had only said Hello to these girls so pulling them to the table felt needy, but we did it any way. And Iím glad we did because the interaction at the table was so bad that they left right away, and I learned a valuable lesson.

    If youíre uncomfortable, theyíll be uncomfortable too. But this gave me a little spark for the rest of the night.

    Later I was talking to a girl and I put my hand on her hips, when I did I couldnít feel any underwear. So I looked her in the eyes and asked if she was or not. She smiled coyly, and I slid my hand under her dress without breaking the eye contact. When I got there, her head dropped back and the eyes rolled into the back of her head. Confirmed, no underwear.

    Her and her two friends came back to the mansion and we all hung out until 5 or 6 in the morning when they left one of them said something like

    ďItís very refreshing how all of you carry yourselves. We never really meet guys like you.Ē

    Between the table at the club and the mansion they had interacted with almost all of us. It was pretty cool to hear that.

    Friday August 11, 2017.

    Night 2 Hakkasaan.

    Iím tired. Minor aches and pains are starting to turn into less minor aches and pains. But three nights from now I know thereís a four day break. I can sleep then, go to the doctor or whatever I need to do. For now Iím going to push it as hard as I can for as long as I can and see what happens.

    I was more used to the table tonight as we had the exact same one the night before. It felt a lot more normal bringing girls back there than it did the first night with the first interaction.

    But tonight the real action started when we were leaving the club around 3:30.

    I ran into an instructor one of the other Rockstars and three girls right by the exit. The instructor was winging for the Rockstar, and said they were all going back to the mansion.


    The three of them were in town for a 21st birthday party from Cali, and third girl was actually pretty cool. We got to know each other surprisingly well through fun and normal conversarionfrom the time we met in the casino lobby to the time we got back to the mansion, and I was able to show her my bedroom. Before I passed out at 5:30.

    Lesson: Never go home early and push yourself. You don't know what you're capable of.

  4. Journal #6

    Journal #6

    Saturday August 12, 2017 — XS

    Wake up, gym, eat, seminar, eat, nap (maybe), club, nap.

    Lather. Rinse. Repeat.

    We’re about halfway through our Inner Game 10 day and it’s starting to get pretty intense for everyone. But sharing our deepest and darkest secrets in front of everyone is definitely bonding us as a group. These are our personal demons that we’ve carried with us for years and in a lot of cases decades. We never talked about them with anyone. Instead just shoved them into the closet.

    We didn’t talk about these fears or traumas with anyone because we’re men and our society tells us that men don’t talk about their feelings. But if the last couple days taught me nothing else it’s that vulnerability and trust will bond people quicker than anything else.

    As an added bonus I feel much lighter after sharing with the group. But I feel more genuine, more authentic and more like myself after sharing my childhood traumas in front of the group and being so raw emotionally in front of everyone. I’m way less likely to feel judged or worried about what people think about me.

    It’s a refreshing feeling.

    When we first got to the club I was a little bit tense, a little bit nervous like always. But I loosened up pretty easily, and when I did the interactions I was having went pretty well.

    At some point I found myself talking to a girl from Brazil who was in town for a bachelorette party. She was separated from her friends so I said I would help her look for them. We walked like 20 feet and started talking again.

    She asked me if I wanted a sip of her Corona,

    “No, I don’t drink.”

    I’m pretty used to explaining this to people at this point, but it’s starting to come up less and less.

    “Do you kiss?” She said.

    “NO I’m not allowed.” I said, and I kissed her.

    A couple minutes later I pulled her into a little alcove by the exit that had all the lights turned off. We stumbled around in there and got as naked as we needed to be in order to do what we needed to do.

    When we were about to leave I turned on my flashlight and saw that it was a little room that was full of discarded plates of room service. Mental note to use this area when I need it again.

    We got dressed and looked around for her friend on the dance floor. We danced for a couple minutes and then I left her to go find the Rockstars.

    In bed by 5 AM it’s an early night tonight.

    Sunday August 13, 2017 — XS, Night Swim.

    It’s weird now to think that fingering a girl in a bikini while we’re standing at the bar waiting to order a drink is normal activity. Where as three days ago it was something I had never done before.

    I don’t know what I did tonight before we went to the club, but I was on fire. I was there amusing myself, bantering, having a blast with the boys, it had all the makings for a great night.

    Me and another Rockstar were talking to two girls and the next thing I know, one of them is pressing herself against me, grinding on me, and trying her best to make out with me.

    Her friend on the other hand was an ice dragon, and was doing her best to ruin her night and everyone else’s night around her.

    Eventually we broke off from her friend and before I know it we’re headed back to my secret hideout from the night before. Except my plan gets a wrench thrown in it when security catches us trying to go in there.

    Why is there so much more security tonight? It’s night swim, which means more people outside.


    Ok, plan b. There’s a restroom inside the hotel that has floor to ceiling stalls (we discussed the exact location and procedure in seminar today). The problem with that was she was wearing a bikini and you need a cover up to go inside the casino.

    Ok, plan c. Get her clothes, phone and wallet and go back to the mansion.

    As she’s getting her clothes from her locker, the ice dragon comes back. The two of them get into this long passive aggressive argument about who ditched who, and who made a vow to stick together.

    It wasn’t my place to officiate that, but the ice dragon was definitely in the wrong. I got her number and went back to the find the boys.

    We did our best the rest of the night, but nothing really stuck after that. It’s cool. We went home and passed out. A couple hours later around 6 am, I woke up and my phone was ringing with a call from the bikini girl. I couldn’t have woken up and spoken with her even if I wanted to.

    Monday August 14, 2017 — Off Night

    We’ve got four nights off in a row. This will be awesome bonding time and reflection time for all of us. I know I need it. It’s been non stop for what feels like at least a week now.

    I plan to sleep, hang with the guys, catch up with the outside world and my past life before Rockstar, and most importantly to reflect on all the inner and outer game progress I’ve made in the last week and even before that.

    We were driving today and I thought about the night we went for dinner before the program started. We all had a good laugh about how we are all completely different people from that night which feels like it was a year ago, but it was only ~3 weeks ago.

    The best is yet to come.

  5. #35
    Join Date
    May 2017

    Day 17-19

    Weíve had a couple of heavy days, delving into inner game and working through our inner demons as a group, and the results have been incredible. Itís so true when they say Rockstar is like nothing else, in the way it changes lives and brings people together more strongly than nearly any other experience we can have in our adult lives.

    Weíve been focussing on being bold the past few nights, coming from that fully masculine place. Iíve taken to this quickly, and have seen many times at this point the power of being present, using eye contact more than words, and using my body. Also, itís incredible the difference it makes when youíre coming into an interaction with the sole purpose to be yourself and have fun, and where your beliefs are that you are enough and that women are beautiful amazing creatures. The next step for me was to start working on creating the special bonds; whether they be for the hour, the night, or the building blocks for a longer term relationship, I need to move from being the fun dominant masculine good looking guy where women think Ďhe was hot/cool/funí to ĎI met a really special guy last nightí.

    Day 17 night out I met a gorgeous mixed ethnicity Latina woman with intense beautiful eyes as we were walking in. I got her number and went to find the guys and warm up a bit, but quickly found her again. From the start we had a strong connection, one of those ones thatís hard to describe, the bubble just exists and itís strong. I remembered to start opening up more and sharing, showing her the gifts I have to give. But this was from a completely genuine place of giving with no expectation. It was really cool to see her reciprocate, and over the course of the night we got really deep and talked about life, the meaning of it, the universe, ourselves, and personal journeys and growth (a lot of this was back at the mansion by the pool). She wasnít sure if she should leave with me, but I just lead and was cool with whatever happened.

    Day 18 night out was a bit different, I found myself for the first hour or so talking to some fairly hot girls, and groups of girls, but it was certainly work. The difference I noticed, however, was that I was still having fun and doing a lot of the talking, without really running out of things to say / getting awkward even when it was quiet; many of these girls just werenít adding much. Which is fine. One of the instructors had a good analogy the other week, itís like walking around trying to find a tennis partner. Sometimes you can hit it against the wall for a bit and itís fun, but when you find someone that hitís back you can have a lot of fun. About half way through I met a gorgeous little blonde girl, who was crazy, weird, funny, cute, intelligent, and all around a great conversational tennis partner. The thing was she was there to hang out with her friends, and while she was fun, she tested/held her shield for a long time. I didnít mind, I was having a great time and was disinterested in the outcome. I just held myself solid, came from that masculine place, and didnít give in to her teasing/testing (pretending to go to kiss me etc). At certain points I would see her melt from a subtle look, something strong I would do, and I just appreciated how far Iíve come. Thereís no way 3 weeks ago Iíd be able to play (in the childish fun sense of the word) with a woman like this; she was becoming more and more feminine and girly the more of a man I was. We went back to her hotel and had a great night.

    Reflecting, both of these nights ended with incredible intimate experiences solely because I was able to connect and go deep, find that special connection, and empower my dance partner to be feminine, be free of judgement, and fall into my presence. It was really cool to see, how genuine I can be and how amazing I can make people feel by just being myself. Iím slowly becoming the man I always knew I could be.

    We wrapped up the inner game intensive period. One of the instructors ex girlfriends offered to take us all through a yin yoga class prior to taking a few days off to reflect on everything we'd learned and how much we've changed so far. It was awesome, I came out feeling calm, refreshed and centred.

  6. #36

    Reflection on the 10-day bootcamp

    Wow, these 10 days seem such a distant past, and yet it is almost as if I barely arrived at the mansion yesterday. This has been such a wild ride that it is next to impossible to keep track of things without the help of my diary. So letís recap the official 10-day bootcamp by which this whole Rockstar adventure started.

    The first night before the official start of the 10-day was one of the head instructorís birthday party, so we had a great table at Marquee and no real goal for the night other than to go out there, interact and have fun. A good opportunity to get a feel for the environment and what a Las Vegas nightclub feels like. It was a great night, as I felt no pressure and was really excited about what was to come. Looking back now, it is kinda funny to see how innocent I was and how much my feelings about those nightclubs has changed between now and then, at some point even turning into feelings of dreading them or considering them work environment.

    The 10-day officially started by a lecture on masculinity. It has been an overarching theme of the curriculum thus far. Overall, the program is a lot different from what I imagined it to be in that the focus is so much more on broader concepts like masculinity and self-love rather than technicalities and mechanics. And that same theme has kept throughout the nights Ė where I envisioned myself getting detailed feedback after every single interaction, I see myself getting a very broad instruction ďbe more bold tonight and lead harderĒ, and oftentimes thatís basically it. If you ask for support, you often get it (especially in opening interactions), but other than that, you are basically left to your own experiences and discoveries Ė which is a way of learning that is new to me.

    Possibly the biggest takeaway of the first days of classes what the definition of a true man as being someone who someone who feels his fear, does not really know what to do, but does shit anyway. As obvious as that sounds, it had never really hit home before quite in the same way as it did that very first day of the bootcamp. The other big takeaway Ė that has been reiterated and reinforced even more during the following 10 days of inner game Ė is that the mind is a muscle. Approaching is a muscle that needs to be trained, as is leading, being bold / flirty / deep / sexual. That muscle needs to warmed up every night, so the smartest thing to do is to plunge right into the action at the very start of the night without any other intention than to get your conversational muscle firing and your state up. Easy said, but often hard to do. But it works.

    The following days were dedicated to various aspects of conversation Ė trips & tricks for being flirtatious and bantering, how to bring conversations to a deeper, more connecting level, good and bad ways of sexualizing and using touch and body language, what level of boldness is acceptable and what mindset it should come fromÖ so each of the first few nights out was dedicated to practicing one and only one of those specific mechanics Ė make a bold move and pick a girl up or lead her out of the club way before you feel comfortable or ďallowedĒ to do that, engage in a deep and long conversation about your passions and your motivation, use touch, eye contact and sexual innuendo to create and hold tensionÖ and then learn to oscillate between those actions to become more of a challenge and become oversteering in any directions. Itís interesting to see how much easier things become of you really focus on the process instead of this outcome Ė itís so much easier to be bold when your intention is ďwell, letís see what I have to do to make her get angry at me and blow me outĒ instead of ďwow, sheís hot, I want to kiss herĒ. Only by truly trying to push your own boundaries and trying to explore hers, you learn to get a feel for where boundaries are in interactions. And more often than not, they are way beyond were you thought they would be. And experiencing this first-hand creates the reference experiences that than cause the necessary shifts in your mindset that make you expand your world view and become more comfortable in sexual interactions.

    What is really hard is to keep up the level of challenges. Through all the experiences that we are making our comfort zones expand so fast that it takes a really steadfast determination to keep operating at the edges of our comfort zones and keep pushing them. Itís just so easy to lose yourself in the positive feeling of great interactions with attractive girls if thatís what you have been craving for so long instead of truly trying to go all-in and get the full prize or be blown out. Thatís why the instructors keep hammering into our head that we need to fail harder because the only rock-solid place in yourself that you can always rely on comes from the experiences you made by taking action and the doubts only exist because you never really experienced things yourself.

    An astonishing amount of time is also dedicated to the girlsí perspectives. What their needs are, why they react the way they do, the difference between what they say and what they mean, how to meet their needs, how to truly love the feminine, how to truly give and make any interactions with them special and one to rememberÖ what truly sets this program apart is that it is very little about mechanics and nothing at all about how to sweet-talk girls into bed almost against their own free will, but all about how to turn yourself into a happy, healthy, confident and abundant male human being that natural feels and is attractive, and about how to provide a woman with enough masculinity, comfort and security so she can open up and experience her true femininity. We started off by a few day of conversation mechanics without learning a single canned line, and from there on it was basically all inner game in the much broader context of becoming a more aware and better version of the men we already were. Loving it.

  7. 10-Day Bootcamp Reflection.

    When I first discovered Love Systems around a year ago I figured that I would get the tools that would help me learn how to get girls. Then I would sharpen those tools a little bit and head off into the wild where I would progressively see an increase in the quantity and the quality of the women in my life.

    Thatís not really how it works.

    Over the last year the tools that I had did get better and better. And the results increased. But there was something missing.

    There's no doubting that when we started the 10 day program on Rockstar the tools I had all got upgraded. It was like trading in a hack saw for a chain saw, a screw driver for a drill, a sledge hammer for a jack hammer. But I still didn't feel confident enough using them.

    Iíve sat in on a fair number of boot camps through Love Systems and one thing I realized is that a weekend just isnít enough time to transform into the man you want to become. There is too much material and too much information to give out in such a short period of time. But aside from that the reality of it is, that the type of transformation I was looking for is not possible to achieve in 3 days.

    This is a journey and it takes time. Now Ten Days is a more realistic span of time to go into detail on the content, and to cover the mechanics and logistics of meeting women. But depending on the person it will take a long time after the fact to implement all the knowledge and even longer before you're meeting the women you want to meet. That's just the reality of it.

    The fact that we get to stay in this environment and push ourselves will LOCK in that growth over the next ~50 days. Thereís literally zero chance of us regressing into our old habits because we're going out every night with the best group of guys imaginable. This is where the mechanics that we learned in the 10 day will lock in and we will begin to see the growth.

    In just 10 days I feel like Iíve moved forward by pushing myself beyond boundaries and limits that I previously would have set for myself. I've done things that I wouldnít have thought possible if I wasnít on this program. Thatís the beautiful thing about the 10 day program, not only has it brought us all closer and bonded us in ways that have given us stronger connections than I have with some of my oldest friends. The connections we've made aren't the only inspiring thing but seeing the growth of everyone around me is helping me push myself harder, and to try things I wouldnít have attempted in the past.

    On the surface itís been a blast, partying at the sickest clubs in Vegas for 10 days. Iíve seen guys on this program make massive leaps in the first 10 days including myself. Weíve done things I would have never thought possible, and Iíve tightened up aspects of my game that will benefit me long after we've left Vegas and long after Rockstar is over.

    Thatís not to say that itís been easy.

    There were plenty of times when I was uncomfortable, and plenty of times that I was scared shitless. But thinking back to 10 days ago, the way I felt when we were about to walk into Marquee for the instructors birthday on the first night... The difference is laughable, it isnít comparable. Those weíre two different people.

    Itís important to think back and remember this progress that weíve made, because being that weíre all so close to the screen that itís hard to see the big picture.

    When I was 17 or 18 years old, I asked a girl out and got my first humiliating rejection. That drove me to change the exterior of myself because I thought that would be a good way to not get rejected ever again.

    At some point during the 10 day I recognized that I had a pretty big ego around this area of my life.

    After being rejected I started working out, I changed my hairstyle, I upgraded my fashion, and recently I took action towards improving my lifestyle to be more aligned with my hobbies and passions. Because I was determined to prove that I was capable of meeting and dating women.

    So not only on Rockstar but back home in my social circle before I cam here. I felt like I was drawing significance from hooking up with women, and I was pushing myself to do so out of a need for validation and out of a fear of scarcity that was previously in my dating life. Coming on Rockstar has humbled me, and itís also shown me this about myself. Prior to joining the program I knew that scarcity and ego were concepts that are bad and unhealthy, however I was blind to the fact that I was doing it myself. Now itís clear that I was and Iím doing my best to recognize these aspects of my life and to improve them the best that I can so I'm coming from a place of love and giving.

    I didnít really wake up to what was driving me so hard for all these years (FEAR), until we started to touch on Inner Game. I knew coming in that this is an area I needed to grow in, and that it was an area I wanted to grow in and it was a big reason why I wanted to come on this program.

    The way the instructors described outer game is that itís like training for a marathon with an ankle weight on. All the better hairstyles,fashion, improved lifestyles, and fitness habits are types of training, but when itís time to run the marathon taking off the ankle weight is the only way it's going to give you a better marathon time.

    The fact that there are still gaps in my inner game and my inner beliefs and the stories that I tell myself is like running the marathon with an ankle weight on. Itís time to take off the ankle weight and fix the inner beliefs that I have so I can do the best that Iím capable of with all the training and tools that I have at my disposal.

    If youíve been following the blogs of the Rockstars you know that thereís been some crazy stuff going on. Thatís just the appetizer, with all the inner and outer work that weíre doing on ourselves the lid of this thing is going to be blown off. And the rest of the way and weíre going to do some pretty fucking amazing things together.

    I canít wait to look back on October 2 and read this reflection and the previous blog posts while thinking to myself ďThatís Cute.Ē

  8. #38
    Join Date
    May 2017

    10 Day Reflection

    My journey started 3 years ago when I took a 3 day bootcamp with Gil Rio and Darwin in Los Angeles. How things have changed since then. How I have changed.

    I think the best way the 10 Day Program is to first share what the 3 day did for me compared to what has happened over the last 3 days.

    When I took my 3 day boot camp, I had no confidence. It took everything I had just to walk up and approach girls. Once I had mounted the courage to walk up I would be stuck trying to figure out what to talk about and would get blown out after 2 minutes. I put so much pressure on myself to do it right, that it would mess up my ability to actually listen and communicate, and then Iíd beat myself up and it would get even worse. My 3 day bootcamp first and foremost pushed me to actually go and approach girls. That alone is literally invaluable. As the weekend progressed, I saw improvement from my confidence once I surrendered to the instructors. When I think back, it basically told me that I needed to have natural game, but was lacking in actually giving me practical ways to implement and improve other than be myself. Yes there were ways to banter and other stuff, but I felt like I was more shooting from the hip. 3 days was not enough time to actually go through everything that I needed. It did however spark in me that drive and desire to continue to work on this and grow, which that alone was invaluable given the limited cost of the program. Letís be real, 3 grand to change your life in a weekend is a small price to pay.

    At worst the 10 day was a comprehensive plan on how to improve the social, relationship, and self talk aspects of my life. At best, it gives the tools to rewrite the way that you can handle yourself in relationships both romantic and otherwise, while also giving you a glimpse of what the path looks like farther down the road.

    Before we dived into anything regarding communication or body language, we first had a conversation on the basis for who we are, or masculinity.

    Since I was a kid, it has been expressed to me that I needed to be a man, someone that has honesty and integrity as he moves through the world. Most of what I viewed a man as comes from my (step) dad and my grandpa. There really wasnít much open discussion of feelings from the father figures in my life. When I thought of a man, I thought honesty, integrity, getting shit done, but there was also a wall between him and the world, I was unreactive to the world and was unaffected by it, or at least I didnít show it. So what is masculinity? Itís the basis for how we, as men, move about the world. It means having honesty and integrity, being able to be vulnerable and sharing ones struggles with the world, and always pushing forward through the challenges no matter what happens. He strives through the world with boldness and is a compliment to the feminine side of women, which he allows her to show through the strength and protection he offers her. That is the basis for how we move about the world. Itís not about being this rough tough guy that relies solely on himself. Itís about going after his goals, and bringing every person around him up at the same time.

    With that in mind, we moved on to the basics of conversation. For years I had been taught that we needed to be able to build attraction and then qualify, then build comfort, and then we would be able to Open Sesame and have sex with a girl. Or more globally, be able to successfully interact with the people around us. I found it confusing, and I didnít want to have to be constantly building routines.

    The model we were taught maintains that no, you donít need to preplan your conversations with people ahead of time. There is a better way. How about you just talk about what youíre naturally interested in and then layer funny, deep, or sexy things throughout the conversation. But that wonít work right? Women donít like me for who I am. I need to change who I am and figure out what they like to talk about so they will stay right? No. No one wants someone to try to cater to them. If I talk about what I like I can get passionate about it and pass along those emotions to the person Iím with. In the past, Iíd ask a million and one questions on the other person, and force them to drive the conversation. Sure, Iíd try to relate while the other person finished answering the question, but I couldnít drive the conversation because I wouldnít be interested and would be bored which would telegraph and then neither of us really want to talk to each other. With this in mind, the goal of having conversation is to talk about what youíre interested in and make it interesting. Then you layer on top everything else. Mind blowing.

    For all of the energy that we put into the verbal conversation, that part only accounts for 7% of the communication between people. The other 93% is non verbal. Enter subcomms. Itís something that most people donít think of but itís also the most important thing to get down. How do you tell if someone is lying? Is it the words? If I say I didnít eat the last oreo, how can you tell if I am lying or not? Through tone of voice, and your body language. How do you stand up, does your voice waver, do you speak softer? The way we speak and the way we carry our body is more important than the words that we use.

    This is the ďouter gameĒ or the actual communication techniques that people use to express themselves. As much power as these techniques have, they are effectively useless in the long run without ďinner gameĒ which refers to the mindsets and thoughts that you carry with yourself on a day to day, moment by moment basis. Now there is another week of inner game that I will reflect on later but this was a good start for our devices here.

    Basically what we learned is that we all have pre programmed filters through which we see the world through that can either help or hurt us. In addition, all the time we are constantly analyzing every situation to see if it benefits or hurts us.

    In the past year I have spent most of my focus on the communication portion and very little on my overall mindset when Iíd be going out. I always look at it like a computer. Your ability to banter, hold a conversation, and push the boundaries sexually are like the programs that you use. Your mindsets, thoughts, and feelings are your operating system. It doesnít matter if you have access to Adobe Photoshop 2025, if youíre running Windows 98 as your operating system it isnít going to do shit for you. Clearing out those mindsets was the icing on the cake. The first couple days I was having success but would be in my head and struggled. After we started clearing out those old mindsets, it helped me not only when I would be out, but I also felt better about myself.

    So first 10 days are done. I look back and wonder how much I would have grown had I had this program three years ago when I first started working to improve my game. I realized midway through this journey that the only way I was going to be happy is if I had something that I could apply to my day to day life. I didnít want to have to switch who I aws when Iíd go out and be around women. This program really instills in you the importance of being yourself. I wanted to give an overview of this but the guys on top have spent what, 9 years perfecting the timing of everything that we did on the program. Every single piece seemed to fall in the perfect order where you would get it when you needed it. Iím not going to lie, it was hard. We put a shit ton of effort into going out and doing the best that we could. But it was worth it. The 10 day alone gave me more than my now 8 years working to get better with women. That includes all the reading, magic bullets, the lounge, all the audio books. Blew it out of the water. The value you get out of the 10 day more than covers the cost. Do you want to not only get better with girls, but be given the road map for how to continue to improve yourself not just with women but in your own life? Take a 10 day.

  9. #39
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    May 2017

    Entry #2 10 day reflection.

    I've been on Rockstar for 10 days now. I'm extremely confused and frustrated as I'm writing this entry. While I expected this to be hard, I certainly did not expect things to go the way they are. The fact that night #1 was a disaster certainty did not help things. I was a victim of predatory deception resulting in a minor crisis during which the thought of just leaving PR and going home crossed my mind a couple of times.

    Fortunately for me, I was able to overcome that experience and immerse myself into the instruction. I came to PR with the intention of following the process with full faith, regardless of my insight/understanding of the the specifics and I have been doing just that.

    Having gone through 10 days of PR, I feel completely lost and disjointed. Though I have also seen glimpses of what I want and should be doing. The things I'm being taught in seminar make complete sense. The mechanics of language, the content of the conversation and body language make complete sense to me. The need for inner game, sense of self worth and lack of judgment when dealing with the opposite sex are also understandable. Furthermore, we are being taught by exceptionally accomplished guys, who make this stuff look easy. But it is not.

    I am approaching an average of 30 women every night. I seem to be doing and saying all the things that I'm being taught. However most of the women I approach either jolt out of my way or get dragged away by their friends. I'm able to initiate a few deeper interactions every night and have been able to maintain a regular, somewhat boring conversations without any significant chemistry or connection. While the ability to do that is required, it's hard for me to take things further.

    I've been to nightclubs before and I'm not a big fan. Being an introverted and logical guy, I find unsettling discomfort in an environment where dark setting, loud music, bright lights and converging human traffic columns create a sensation of chaos. I feel like an outsider in this chaos and I really cannot have fun, rather experiencing a sensation of all this stimulation pressuring me deep into my own head. In the past I would use alcohol to dis-inhibit myself and try and mingle, but that is not an option. I'm still struggling with how the heck am I supposed to talk to anyone, when I can barely hear myself think.

    However, I will admit that after 10 days of heavy rotation in this environment, I do feel a bit more comfortable. What is also remarkable is the ease of overcoming approach anxiety. Rejection is becoming a regular and acceptable norm. The more I laugh about it, the easier it is to start talking to the next gorgeous (or at the very least attractive) woman who walks by me.

    I was especially frustrated after night 8 at XS. I felt as if I was given all the tools needed to go out and meet beautiful women. I saw most of my classmates doing exceptionally well and going home with gorgeous women and I felt as if I was bouncing against the wall of rejection and back inside the prison within my head. The thought of giving up an leaving PR would alternate with the thought of trying harder and harder, which is what I have been doing all along. I did not fall asleep until 9am (which is not much later than when we normally go to sleep) despite taking multiple sleep aids. The following morning, with the help from the instructors I realized that I am running my own race and have a completely distinct and heavy set of obstacles to overcome. They are more complex and my progress will be slower.

    I communicated with some of the guys who are doing PR with me before the program started and I got a feel for some extremely accomplished and kind people. My intuition did not disappoint and I am here indeed with a group of unbelievable guys from all over the world. The age range in mind blowing: 21-48. I rarely hang out with anyone more than 6 years out of my age. Guys' level in game is as varied as their age, geography and backgrounds. I feel like I'm somewhere in the lowest 30% game-wise. I've been much better in the past years, but the last 6 months of working nights (with very limited social contact) and other personal problems have had a significant impact on my ability to communicate with people, much less with gorgeous women. I also feel considerable difficulty connecting with the guys in my class as well. That's just my nature; it takes me a very long time to connect with people. Part of the frustration is seeing other people form bonds while I feel lukewarm connections. It is nevertheless cool to live in a luxury version of a frathouse, something I haven't done since college.

    I'm really excited about the depth of the instruction and resources that are being put in. Project leaders are deeply invested into our success and its encouraging. What is also a huge boost is the feedback that I'm getting from the alumni from prior years. This experience was life changing for people who came from some very dark places and not only are they excited about their own transformation gained with PR but they are truly excited about seeing us undergo the same journey and emerge on the other side.

    While I am feeling very frustrated with my progress so far, there is no way to ignore the positives. One huge one is an emerging understanding of the dependence of outer game on inner game. Women are exceptionally perceptive to where a man's approach originates from. Just learning the mechanics may suffice at times, but most women will thin slice your mechanics away and will see lack of confidence masculinity and self worth in a millisecond. I'm not here to learn “the game” I'm here to develop my masculinity, self love and inner worth. Once I have these, the body language, pick up lines and confidence that attract gorgeous women will come naturally. However, these deep inner pillars have malformed and been neglected for many years and they cannot be repaired in 10 days, 2 months or even a year and PR is a start of that process. That being said, I'm definitely catching glimpses of how these precepts must align within me and manifest an attractive man in a chaotic environment of a night club. And when I catch these glimpses, I feel a flame within myself to push hard and nurture these. I really cannot think of a better place and people to do these with than here. I feel excited to keep pushing hard, overcoming one small obstacle at a time and unleashing my masculinity.

  10. #40
    Join Date
    May 2017

    10 Day Bootcamp Reflection

    Now that we’re a week since finished the 10 day, we’ve been asked to reflect on the experience, the lessons learned, and how far we’ve come. I’m finding it so hard to even relate to the person I was on Day 1, before we started formal instruction.

    When we started, I was OK with women by normal standards (though I look back now and see how many blocks and issues I had). I could approach, have a lot of fun and banter, and hold the attention of groups. But there always seemed to be some big parts I was missing. I was so confused, I was this cool fun guy with so much going for him, yet women would get bored quickly and over my bullshit, before moving on and I’d see them later with other guys that didn’t seem to have anything to offer I didn’t have. And there was another issue in that; I was outcome dependant and seeking validation from other people, always trying to make everyone like me. I thought I had no outcome dependence, simply because I didn’t care if I took the girls home that I was talking to (in fact, I preferred not to). In reality, I was seeking validation to bandage my own insecurities. And not wanting to take girls home was related to my own insecurities, rather than being focussed on giving.

    The 10 day program was incredible. I expected to spend the first few days learning ‘mechanics’, which we did, but the way it was done was completely different to my expectation. We started with discussing masculinity, and becoming a better man. We weren’t told any lines, we didn’t practice any routines. The whole program is established to make better human beings, and therefore as a small subset we get better with women. You can only connect the dots in reverse, but looking back from where I’m at now, it seems so simple; create solid people to the core, mend their relationships with themselves and watch their relationships with their family, friends, people around them and women improve dramatically. Going out the first night and just having normal conversation worked better than I could have ever imagined. The goal was to just be authentically myself, talk about stuff I found interesting and fun, and to my massive surprise women responded extremely well in joining in on conversation, opening up and being themselves. I met a great girl and spent the night laughing and having fun before taking her home – who would have thought, without anything but normal conversation and forcing myself to stand at least a foot away at all times, I’d already done better than I have in the past.

    The program certainly has a steep learning curve; the next night we went into ramping up non verbal communication through touch and body language, with the idea to see how far the boundaries really are; and as we all saw, they’re a lot wider than I thought right off the bat (hand holding right off the saying hi for example). After working hard for a lot of the night, going overboard I started to see the balance and adjusted for it. It was then when I saw one of the most gorgeous women I’ve seen in a long time, in a group/table that in the past would have made walk past too intimidated, and I went for it, and it all clicked. Day 2 and I spent the night with a stunning woman with an amazing personality; hey, maybe they’re teaching us something very right with this natural normal human style curriculum.

    The program continued at a fast pace, with the next day discussing views on sex and non-judgement. That night I was so surprised how open women are about sex when I’m coming from a place of genuine non-judgement. Practicing this skill allowed me to give a woman an extremely special experience that night; it was a beautiful thing to show her how comfortable she could be in her own skin. The next two days were amazing, going into warmth and texting. Dispelling all the bull shit rules around texting was amazing, and listening to some of the most masculine guys there is, people like Venture, talking about being warm and caring and going deep was great to see. The whole program is predicated on coming from that strong, caring, authentic masculine place, without any tricks or weird tactics. It’s just being the best version of myself, and some people will not like that, and that’s ok, it’s better for me and them that I be real and genuinely me. For testament to how powerful and genuine this program is, after only a week instruction I made group sex happen, where we were able to give the birthday girl and her friend an experience they’ll never forget.

    The second half of the program was all inner game. I’ll discuss this in detail in my inner game period reflection. We essentially worked on changing our inner psychology, starting with the stories we tell ourselves that have defined our lives, and the ‘rackets’ we run on other people (e.g. that guy is ‘XYZ’, passing judgement), to understanding what needs are dictating our lives, whether they be the need for significance or connection, certainty or uncertainty, growth and giving. It finished with an understanding of how important state is in our everyday lives and in our interactions with women, and the key drivers to improve state. Writing out the list of the gifts I have to give, the ‘why I’m great’ list, was an important exercise for me to realise how much of an awesome guy I already am, and how much I have to bring to the lives of those around me.

    All in all, the 10 day program was incredible. The key to its power is the fact that the program isn’t really about picking up women; it’s about forging guys into great men, that come from a place of authenticity and masculinity in all areas of their lives; that’s why there’s so much on inner game. It’s about giving people the tools they need to develop into good attractive men with lives women want to be a part of.

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