I broke up with my first love a month ago (A guy kissed her, she kept it from me) Since then we've both hooked up with other people (I got in a 3way makeout with a hb8.5 and her friend hb9 )
To all those broken hearts and aching souls.
And she want's me back, but I need to do my own thing, I know that if I took her back I'd be admitting to myself that I can't do better, and thus the power dynamic will shift.
Try reading this- It makes me feel a little better when I'm getting that sinking longing feeling to be back together with her (It can get tough when I know I can be back together with her in a heartbeat)
"After awhile you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul. And you learn that love doesn't mean security, And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts. And presents aren't promises. And you begin to accept your defeats with you head up and your eyes open. With the grace of maturity, not the grief of a child. And you learn to build all your roads on today because tommorow's ground is too uncertain for plans, And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After awhile you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure... That you really are strong. And that you really do have worth. And you learn and learn and learn... With every goodbye you learn."
-Veronica A Shoffstall
I've never really identified with a quote or piece of literature or advice so deeply. This really gets to me though, it's indescribable.
Hopefully this helps others in a similar position.
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