Showing you all how disgusting I am inside

Showing you all how disgusting I am inside

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    Showing you all how disgusting I am inside

    Hey guys, My name is Toneshark.

    I don't want to get kicked off the board. I'm not going to ask any stupid questions.

    In the past, growing up all the way through now I've tried on many personas.

    I'm fake. I don't want to be fake. But I've been trying to find out who I am.

    I have this idea in my head that the person I am has to be this person who everyone finally feels acceptance. Ultimately I feel like I'm too obsessed with being a part of the popular and desired group. I've rebelled against this, too. Making up a new persona that is very negative... trying to embrace what makes me different... embrace my rejection.

    None of it has worked. None of it has made me happy.

    I've always been the odd dog, the "it."

    I was picked on as a kid really badly, getting in fights alot and this struggle inside me still goes on today but in a different way.

    I don't want to be fake. I don't want to fear confrontation. I don't want to opress myself because of my fears.

    Granted, I have been accepted by alot of people and in some ways I've been accepted by the popular circles - but it's never been real.

    I won't ask you all what to do about "this one girl."

    That's why I'm here though. Not because I want to get with this girl. But because I want to get the fuck over it.

    I don't know if everyone who's had oneitis has it like me. I feel like I have a severe psychological condition.

    I have had this addiction for 4 years. I've never known what I'm doing and I want my life back and my control back.

    I want to be emotional detached from her and all my thoughts and feelings I've had for her through the years.

    I want to stop having thoughts about her getting married to her boyfriend. I want these thoughts to stop because I'm not in love with her and I don't feel like I need her and I want to actually be repulsed by how I used to feel about "this one girl."

    I'm headed to college soon.

    I'm going to WVU which is the 2nd biggest party school in the nation.

    I'm going there to become a master trainer because I want to help people with their bodies for a living. That's my thing, is lifting.

    I'm going to school to study and not to party.

    But I want to *become* while I'm there.

    Whatever *become* means, it just sounds right. Just to shed this skin that has been painful my whole life. This skin that has been ridiculed and has cuts and bruises from the fists of rejection and unrequited love.

    I want to shed and I want to be happy and content for once in my life.

    I don't think getting girls is going to make me happy. I feel like I need alot of substance in life. I feel like I need to help other people and solve problems and serve a deeper purpose to be happy.

    thank you all for reading.



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    wow. where do i begin on this one.


    First. on this site there are no stupid questions, if you have one, ask one

    this is a DISCUSSION BOARD, NOT A DEPRESSION BOARD

    i dont know if you know what a PUA is, but its not a Pessamistic Ugly Asshole.

    things you need to do

    -cheer the fuck up, seriously.

    -stop worrying so much about what other people think of you, worry about what you think of yourself first.

    -just make some friends, surround your self with people you like.

    -with those friends, go out and do something fun at least once a week

    after youve done that, THEN worry about picking up women

    if none of this works, seek therapy, you may need to be medicated.
    i hate to be so hard on you, but it sounds like you need it and im glad to be the first to reply to this. add me as a friend, i wanna see some progress.

    On the Bright side...

    -your a good writer

    -you have no where to go but up

    ...take it easy bro

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    Toneshark, in high school you have the image that you have carried since childhood. There's not a whole lot you can do about it and 90% of the population isn't happy about who they were through high school. A lot of people feel the exact same way you do. Don't sweat it. You are still searching for your self. That is totally normal. You will still be learning about yourself through college and into your professional life...

    The good news for you is that you can become the man you want to be. You have a clear goal and identity of the person you want to be. most of your college peers have no idea what they want.

    The key to your happiness is do the things that you like to do and screen the women in your life for interests that are the same as yours. Don't try to be someone your not for a woman. As far as getting over one woman. That's easy. Start dating. Not just one, date many women. Go out, have fun and find the women that you enjoy spending time with. Spend time the with the ones that make YOU laugh, that make YOU feel good.

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    Welcome dude. Dont be afraid to put your troubles in these forums, we are here to help you. Even though some people will be rude and mean, just dont mind them. You are here to better yourself and thats all that matters. About this one gir your talking about, just go ahead and delete and throw away everything you have about her and dont speak to her again for a while (for a while i mean months... or maybe forever). Other than that, we are more than happy to have you here.

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