My first field report and hopefully not my last...ive been in this group for several months...but my actions were limitless...pretty much a spectator to all of your brave field reports. So im gunna try to attempt to give a detailed report even tho there was a lack of activity in PUA standards.
this last friday night was the first night ive been to a bae in several weeks i believe...I feel that my AA isnt AA anymore...more like Social Paralysis at times...we went to this dive bar which was pretty cool...HB 8-10's all around...but before i even got there...my pre-game was horrible...i was in the opposite of what being 'in-state' is all about...all i was thinkin about was how i was gunna act...trying to remember routines...openers...how i was gunna transition...etc...then when we finally got there...and i saw the woman from the car as we were pulling in...my heart started beating and thoughts swarmed my head...but they were not good thoughts...thoughts of how the outcome would be...how devistated i would be if a 10 turned me down...i should of been in a worry-free, playful, outcome independent, funny guy...which i know i can be cause that persom has showed his face a few times in the past...
So i got there with a horrible in state mind...walked in and saw all the sets that i could of approached but did not...went straight to the bathroom with out saying a word or looking at any HB's in the eye for more then 2 seconds...it felt like daggers when i look for to long...thats another sticking pointing...but mostly for not being in-state...so from the bathroom was straight to the bar where i ordered a long island...and thats all i did was order, no talkin to anyone when there were sets everywhere...all i was thinking to myself was "why am i feeling this way", "why cant i just talk to people...i love to talk"...i honestly just didnt know how to deliver a indirect opener or even go direct...i just didnt know what to say on the spot...like i said before...i am just not able to manifest my thoughts to reality yet...
So i get my drink and go back to my friends who was in the corner of the bar..."the loner spot"...where all the loners would just stand together and watch the dance floor where all the HB's were...so my friends co worker shows up with 3 HB's... 30 year old HB 8, asian HB7.5...and ummm wide HB 2...but she was cool as hell...i know if i properly gamed the HB 8 I coulda F closed her that night but then again, couldnt even put 2 sentences together yet...there some pretty good
kino between us tho since there was dancing involved and she grabbed my shirt...but didnt pull me in...just grabbed it like she was about too...i didnt really know what it meant...anyways i ended up talkin to the asain HB7.5...didnt really run shit...no attraction building...didnt properlly A2 her or even A3 but we ended up isolating outside twice to smoke a cig...we talked about various things...i through alot DHV-spiked stories...i actually #-closed her...didnt do anytihng else that night at the bar...didnt even approach sets that i new i could of...I KNOW they wanted me too...they all do in all aspects of social gatherings...they love this shit but men are too chicken shit to do shit because we are hard-wired this way...but this community is to demolish it and i love that about this community...and i wanna be apart of it...i wanna be a student but just cant seem to put it together in reality...help me out guys...i know i have it in me just need to unleash it out...just like the rest of yall of doing...and for doing so...i envy every last one of you...respect
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