two things i don't know what i have to think of

[Badak]

Ok this is my first post in this wonderful forum:

I don’t know where to post this but I have some things I’d like to discuss with you experienced guys. I’m in the game since several months and got my new and first real gf with MM and I fclosed her. So far so good. I would like to know what she knows about me when I did this:

1) Before I learned the MM and AM I tried to get her with my normal human stuff with compliments and doing everything for her, lets say I was the real nice guy. Then I went to her house and asked her after half a year (I know WAY too long) how this is going to continue from her opinion. She told me there wont be anything and I fucked up the friendship from this second. But that wasn’t it I even wrote a disstrack and sent her the mp3 file right after Christmas. I rang at her door at 4 o clock in the morning etc. I even made her cry. She’s in my school too where I totally ignored her. I was totally frustrated but wow after 6 months of ignoring her I discovered the MM and as I really wanted that girl I apologized for what I did. Since that moment I followed the method and after a month she became my gf.

First off I never will do anything like that again but what is her impression? Does she think now that if she cheats me I will kick her ass ? Or was it a sign of weakness? (Don’t think so because she is now my gf). Or has she now a kind of respect or even a fear of doing anything that could piss me off? It showed her the willingness to leave didn’t it? I’m curious what you guys think of this.

2) I’m currently looking forward to find out how to deal with desire for a girl that isn’t there. My gf is now for 5 weeks in another country and I’m very loyal so I wont cheat her. Every free second I have to think of her so I’m trying to find a way how to deal with that. I found out when I have contact with other girls the desire disappears but what if you have no other girl around. I found out that it’s quite easier to hate than to love. What I’m trying to say is that if I hear rap music that is against women I don’t feel that connected to her. I still want to see her but it’s not like CR*P I have to do something! I will die if she isn’t around…..sounds maybe kinda stupid and funny but I hope you have something to say about this….


Thanks in advance

Badak

PS: Sry for my bad English its not my mothers tongue^^

[mrgravez]

My ex and I were together for almost 2 years and had to spend virtually the entire summer apart from one another.

I know talking on the phone helped a lot and we sent each other erotic pictures/emails a few times a week.

Also, I went back to looking up porno which probably helped the most.